this is the worst feeling i have ever felt.
it wasn't supposed to happen; i knew it would.

i feel like some thing has invaded me completely. some thing has gone wrong and my body is scrambling to fix it, but it's not working. the virus is running. your conscious tends to do that to you.
forget about it? fuck that.
as soon as it happened, i felt sick. i feel like vomiting...
fuck livejournal for not working in my moment of desperation...
fuck you...

fuck every thing.
i just want to end it. i don't know how to fix it. i don't know if i can fix it.
i feel like the only way i can is with a knife to myself.